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Name: Sunu
Interests: where shall i begin?
i love the usual: watching tv, eating, listening to music...yada, yada...
what most people dont know is that lately i've been obsessed with writing, poetry and now blogs...its helping me vent without yelling at someone =)
Expertise: school. i'm an expert at school =P
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/8/2005
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| Well, while I've been moping and carrying on about people not rising to the occasion and wanting to achieve greatness with mediocrity, a friend of mine proved today that hard work really does pay off.
He's the first history grad student I met here at OU, and we've been been friends ever since. We've seen each other through some major ups and downs - every imaginable drama you can experience through graduate school - and today, he successfully defended his dissertation.
So in case you needed a reminder of what you can accomplish, you need only to think of my friend. Regardless of what was said against him or how people tried to play mind games with him, he pressed on. And the haters can keep talking smack - they just need to include "Doctor" when they mention his name.
My guess is, he's flyin' pretty high right now.
Til next time...pe@ce be@sts!!  | | |
| Over the course of the last month, I’ve made some decisions to significantly reduce the amount of unnecessary drama that was in my life and to focus on things that occupy my mind in a good way. All that drama had done was make me a much angrier person, easily infuriated by people who really didn’t matter; and in the meantime, when difficulties arose, I had no idea how to express my emotions of sadness and grief because I had spent so much of my time being angry. So, I temporarily deactivated my Facebook account, which has done a world of good for me. Knowing that even if I saw or knew of something irritating, I wouldn’t be able to respond via a status or a wall post has been a good and much-needed lesson in patience for me. I like the feeling of not caring about useless information now. I like not getting riled up. So when I return to Facebook in mid or late May, I’ll be deleting anyone and everyone who even TEMPTS me to go back to that angry person. I didn’t like that Sunu all that much. I’m not gonna like anyone who wants me to go back to being her. In the meantime, I’ve been writing, and I’ve been….wait for it….painting. And I love every minute of it. I love it so much that I dream of it. When I paint, it’s all I think about or focus on, and my mind doesn’t wander to the things that worry me. All of my energy is focused on painting. Don’t get me wrong. There’s nothing to be said about what I’ve actually painted, but the fact that I’m able to just grab a brush and some watercolor and create something that’s uniquely mine? That’s a great feeling. What’s funny is, because I’m a perfectionist and all of my energy is focused on that one painting that I’m working on, I have one big moment of panic. It’s a fear that what I’m creating really sucks because I’ve made a choice in color or something that has completely ruined the entire picture. But the beauty is, if you keep painting and open yourself up to whatever happens, it actually turns out just fine. It’s been a lesson in patience…and a lesson in life. So paint on, I say. Until next time…peace beasts!! | | |
| In the nearly 3 months that have passed since my last blog entry (oops!), my world has turned upside-down and then right-side-up. And truly, it's been in a matter of a few weeks.
In one of those 25-things-about-me lists, I stated that since my last birthday, I've learned about life and love and other mysteries. In the 3 months since the last blog, I've learned even more.
As I was praying this morning, I complained to God that my life seemed to be at a standstill, but quickly realized that if I was at a standstill, God was not the one to blame.
Nope. That one's all on me.
So instead of being upset that things haven't progressed for me, I've made the choice to accept the responsibility of doing the work required to go forward. And then, when I've done my part, God will do His.
Easy peasy.
I hope.
Til next time...pe@ce be@sts!! | | |
| only some want to fly. Isn't that crazy?"
Yes, Seal , it is.
It astounds me how many people thrive on mediocrity. Like somehow it's okay for people to just get by, whether it be with their careers, their education, or their faith. Just get by.
And nothing irritates me more.
In all of her 5 trillion lectures, my mom always used one phrase over and over again. "When you do something, do it right." But as I look around, I've noticed that most people live by the phrase of, "If I don't have to make any real effort, then I'm set." Yet, these very people expect and act as if they deserve the very best. They want the most without having to earn it. They want to gain without having to make a sacrifice.
These are the same people who insist on coasting through their classes. If their jobs require any real work, they spend the rest of their lives whining and complaining to anyone who will listen, while they search for an "less stressful" job.
A plague on these people, I say.
You get ONE life. ONE shot at making a difference. This is it for you. So what are you going to do with it? These are the questions that I've been asking myself, and, in turn, I've been asking of those around me.
With what I have been blessed, am I sitting there and letting them waste, or am I using those things to make a difference?
"Let your light so shine," He said.
Whether or not I have tomorrow or even the next hour is entirely up to my Maker. No matter how much I want control, that is the one thing that will remain outside of it. So I have no choice but to take advantage of the moments I have, do I not?
This isn't to say that every day will be the greatest day or that all of them will go down in history as world-changing days. I may have big dreams but my feet are planted firmly on the ground, I assure you.
The point is, if I've been given wings but I fear what will happen if I use them, then why have wings in the first place?
I've waited long enough. It's time to fly.
Til next time...PEACE. | | |
| Looking back over the course of year, I can't help but notice how much it was poisoned by all the haterade, coming in and going out.
That's right. I drank my fair share of haterade, too. I allowed people of no significance to creep their way under my skin and push me to the brink (if not right over the cliffs) of insanity. And why? You know that NONE of these people cared. They slept nice and sound, all snuggle bunny in their beds, while I fussed and fumed over their ignorance and arrogance.
In the words of Chris Rock, "That $hit ain't right."
So here is one of my resolutions for 2009. Tell me what you think.
"Don't give a $hit."
And I honest-to-God don't.
Listen, I am a BLESSED girl, and I will not be one of those people who make myself feel better or superior by focusing on the negative aspects of other people's lives or personalities. It doesn't make me any better than them.
Granted, this doesn't mean a drama-free life. I've known enough people and been through plenty of drama to have learned that very simple lesson. But at least I'll sleep a little better.
Or so I hope.
Meanwhile, in about 11 hours, 2009 will have arrived, so to you and yours and even the others, I wish a very happy new year. May it be the best yet for us all.
Til next year...pe@ce be@sts!! | | |
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